i want to

Let me tilt my head back and scream
Maybe then Ill finally be seen
Let’s hold hands and jump off a bridge
We can feel our hearts touch
Feel the rush, this means so much
I want to jump in puddles after it rains
I don't want to run around in these circles
Please stop playing these head games
I want to dance around under the stars
Because when I'm with you
They don't seem that far
I want to lay on the floor next to you
Read wonderful books
And talk about life too
I want to hold my breath as you push me so high
On this swing I feel as if I could fly
I want to hang upside-down and give you a kiss
Cant you for fill my one simple wish
I want to slip and fall
And have you help me up
And get over excited when I here your call
Take random pictures out of the blue
I know you want to do the same too
I want you to tackle me
And tickle me till I cry
These are weird things I want
I know this so don't ask me why
Please kiss me all over my face
And tell me I'm cute
And when I say that I love you
Please say it too
When I look in your eyes
Look back into mine
Promise me Ill always be yours
Hold my hand
And hold your breath
Let’s jump into our love
I promise you, you won’t regret
Ill be what you want
But more important
What you need
The best part about it is
Ill still be me
Don't be scared and don't be shy
I promise you Ill never make you cry
I'm the one you have been waiting for
You were just to blind to see
I want you so much more
I tried to tell you
But I understand
You are mixed up
But if you would just take my hand
Ill show you how much better life could be

Because i hate the government....

Become a drug dealing hooker.....
I will sell package deals of sex and drugs......
AND PAY NO TAXES!
Then when I get enough financial backing....
I will start my own underground sex and Drug Company
That of corce is disguised as a bank......
Because so much is done under the table I will dodge most taxes
THEN....
When the economy starts to downfall AGAIN
I will talk the useless government to do a multi trillion dollar bail out
FOR FREE!!!!
And I’ll be rollin in the money the government sucked from the hard working teenagers like myself and poor families barely scraping by....
OH and the drug and sex money of corce!
So I suggest you all stay friends with me
Because I will someday be a very good person to hit up for help
Until of corce I join forces with the mafia
Then if you do....
You could be killed with a shovel
And sleepin the fishes!

The end.....



btw..... It you are wondering how this started..... I worked my ASS OFF this past year. Got my W2 today. Filed my taxes and I guess I made to much money this year... so I got jipped out of like $300......

FUCK THE GOVERNMENT!

admitting

I can only be me
i cannot tell you how many times i have tried to be someone else.... sometimes because i think their better.... sometimes because i think they arent being themselves good enough. i try to fill their shoes for them. I dont have to look at my own shoes that way. but what good does that do for them? or for myself? none.
i guess for a long time i thought i knew who i was. i thought i had all the answes to everything. I was my own person and no one was going to tell me how to be me... but thats just it. i wasnt being me. i was being who i thought they wanted me to be without even realizing it. looking at it now.... i dont think i could answer the question of "who are you?"
so where does that leave me? well it leaves me right here. lost. not knowing who i am. one semester of highschool left. but then what??? dont you have to know who you are to figure out what you want to do.... what you want to be??? isnt who you are the foundation of the rest??? if so then i was doing it backwards.
what do you want to be? a psychologist
do you want a family? yes. 7 kids
what else will you do? public speak
will you help the community? the world? i would hope so
yes yes i know all these answers
but i also know that hasnt always been what i wanted to do. do you think thats maybe because i dodnt have the foundation of who i am as a person???
so where do i start.....
well... right here.... admitting
admitting i am powerless. i can only be me....
now all i have to do is figure out who "me" is.....